X-Men and Cheshire Cats

I just finished re-reading my friend's facebook note number three. It talked about X-men, and posed the question: Would you take the cure? Everything within me screamed, "yes." I want a quick fix. I want to be normal.

But then I thought about it in terms of the X-men. If I had super powers, there is nothing in the world that could make me give them up. And that's the solution. It's our perception. Viewing a trial as a super power or gift, you start digging deeper, searching for the good it can serve you, ways you can use it, instead of the other way around. My particular gift has taught me to love, and I could never, EVER give that gift up. If I were to take a cure, I'd lose the love I have now. And, as dirty or wrong as that is, I can't give it up. I won't give it up.

So where do I go from here? It reminds me of the singing tree from Alice and Wonderland: "Which way shall you go? Which way shall you take? If you don't choose any you'll make a mistake." Actually, I think I made those words up...

Do over.

It reminds me of the Cheshire Cat from Alice and Wonderland. Alice asks the Cheshire Cat which path she should take, to which he responds, "Where do you want to go?" She says she doesn't care. Cat then tells her that if she doesn't care where she goes, then it doesn't matter which path she takes.

So where do I want to go?